Finding Peace and Mindfulness
Today is October 20, 2024, and it’s a beautiful Sunday. As I sit here reflecting on where I am now and how this year has unfolded, I can honestly say I feel relief and peace. I fought hard to reach this point—not just in terms of finances or material possessions, but mentally and spiritually.
I’ve been through so much, especially when COVID hit. I was forced to leave the place where I felt free, a place where I lived on my own as a young adult, and return home early to live with my mother and stepfamily during lockdown. After graduating from college in 2021, I had to jump straight into full adult mode: finding an apartment, getting a job, and working tirelessly. I struggled to pay bills and yearned for the lifestyle I saw others enjoying—traveling and living fully. I often felt jealous, watching people do the things I worked hard for but believed I could never attain.
2022 was particularly challenging. I got a new job but wasn’t happy, and the pay increase didn’t match the 75-80 hours I was putting in. I gained weight, which made me anxious about every meal; I would starve myself but justify it by saying I was fasting. I eventually began to lose weight, but I found myself obsessing over it for over a year, from 2023 and even a bit now.
Despite these struggles, I can proudly say I’ve accomplished many of the goals I set for myself during those tough years. I have a lovely apartment, a well-paying job, and I’m in school without stressing about age or deadlines. I can afford to travel, and I’m surrounded by love and support.
I share this to emphasize that I am happy. Whenever I feel otherwise, I take a moment to analyze my feelings and remind myself that where I am now is a result of my hard work, and understanding that this is where God designed me to be. Any minor issues I face will pass. I need to cherish the blessings—big and small—that God has granted me.
Understanding that each accomplishment is something I once envisioned for myself helps me appreciate the present. Instead of focusing on what I lack, I choose to celebrate what I’ve achieved. This shift in perspective is one of the ways I’ve become more mindful—by truly appreciating, enjoying, and living in the moment.
I hope you enjoy your Sunday and remember to get in your zen and stay mindful always!
